Crazy Tuesday

Tuesday, November 10 2009
I entered the blog very early yesterday but there were a lot of things that happened after I uploaded the blog.
After dinner, I watched movies as usual but for a break I watched some clips on volleyball setting and saving techniques. As I was watching these clips, I was filled with energy and the urge to play well and hope to have some good results in the coming interuniversity games.
Later I received a call from one of my teammate for the interuniversity games. He told me that since his old team asked him to join them, he agreed. Thus I was left with a player short and not to mention a more stable and skillful player lost. At the thought of this I got frustrated and now I feel kind of hopeless for the games. Somehow I have lost the urge to perform well in the games but there is still some part of me that do not want to disappoint the junior. I guess we can only wait and see which part of me will win this internal battle of mine.
Later, I resumed watching the series I was enjoying. It was now at the climax where the main actor has changed from an annoying person to a kind person but was cheated by his friends and family leaving him penniless with no one and nowhere to go to, except for an innocent girl whom he befriended earlier. While watching him being humiliated by his ex-colleagues I felt a pain stabbed into the heart, feeling that the world is such a dangerous place filled with all kinds of people.
Today, after reaching home when I was cooking dinner (boiling soup) I left the cover on the table and was preparing another dish, my friend came in the kitchen and wanted to start steaming some stuff. He then pulled down a pot to use it for the base of the steamer and then he took the cover away without asking me.
I then told him that I need to use it for my soup and he gave me a questioning look. He said that he thought it doesn’t fit the current pot I am using. By then I was already a little angry as I have seen him using the cover with the pot million of times. He then went to look for another cover from a stack of dirty items. He then took the cover I was using again without saying anything and when I asked him what I should be using then, he said that I could use the dirty cover! I was fuming by then. For god sake, I washed the cover till it was clean and he used it and just pass me a dirty one? What on earth was happening? And the reason he was using the pot is because he said to his girlfriend that his wok was too precious to be used for steaming stuff. What kind of reason is that can someone please tell me? You are willing to use somebody’s stuff and let it spoil but not your own? Very good reasoning skills I see.
While writing this I am still fuming with flames thinking back and at the same time I also feel a little childish taking every little thing into account and behave like a child getting angry over everything. I really can’t make up my mind. I want to change for the better and behave more mature and gentleman but I think it is true that it is easier to change a whole dynasty then to change one’s own habit or personality as the saying goes in a Chinese proverb.